Saturday, February 21, 2009
THE HIDDEN TRUTH - GANGSTALKING = MIND CONTROL
My personal Journal, outlining my employment over the last 6 years, and which I will not post for my own personal safety, describes what incredible personal turmoil and fear I was experiencing, and how all of my cries fell on deaf ears. There was not a single person within the boundaries of the law and my employment both past and present that could have come to my assistance. Off course, I didn't know that I was a victim of this so called gang stalking. I did'nt know that I was being secretly stalked and the fear and other emotional imbalances I was experiencing, was a result of what I have now learned to be Directed Energy Weapons, fucking with my head from the apartment next door. No wonder when I would opened my eyes after sleeping, this intense horrifying feeling would hit, and I would want to scream. I didn't know that the whistling that was directed towards me both in the U.S and here, was referred to as a STIMULI, to which I was supposed to have been subjected. Of course it never really got to me. I'm such a strong minded person, that all I ever do is question everything from a rational point of view, most especially people and their intentions. I know myself better than anyone, and because I didn't know that this demon existed , everything that I looked at as irrational, was brushed off as irrational. When I did question the whistling, which was the rational thing to do, (although it made me look like a fucktard), it was only to find out WHY it was happening to me and what was going on, and I was successful in resisting temptation to actually react to it. My personal journal relating to the above, has not been changed or re scripted in any way. Its says nothing about GANG STALKING, DIRECTED ENERGY WEAPON OR MIND CONTROL, or any off that bullshit, but since finding out, and reading the journal over again very closely, the emotional, psychological and physical symptoms of this disease, this demon, is there, hiding in the background.
Friday, February 20, 2009
MR GANGSTALKING SYSTEMATIC APPROACH TO DESTRUCTION
There are no words to describe how one feels to be stripped of every human right, the right to respect and dignity doesn't exist in Mr Gang stalkings world, and if you don't know the rules, it can be catastrophic, as was in my case. Mr Gang stalking managed to get his claws into me virtually everywhere I went, both in the U.S and now in Canada, and that was a direct result of me not knowing that I was part of a game, designed to SYSTEMATICALLY DESTROY me, a GAME that I didn't understand or know the rules to, more so that until now, had even existed.
Now that I studied and learnt this game through educating myself and through observation, I developed what is referred to as a sixth sense, which I refer to as my security sense. I will attempt to explain what this means. All TI'S report that Gang stalking makes you PARANOID, which is true, the GAME is designed that way. It is designed to let your senses KICK IN and let you know that the world IS NOT as it seems, it is designed to make you think you crazy and question your sanity, WHICH IS WHAT THEY WANT. Being paranoid and questioning your sanity is not a bad thing, everybody does it once in a while, we do it because we question whether the world around us is crazy or sane. The opposite of paranoia is metanoia, which tell you the exact opposite, that the world is beautiful, untarnished, seamless, uncruel, humane and fair, and to tell you the truth, this is a sense that is far more dangerous, because its a sense that won't allow you to question yourself, which in short makes you vulnerable as a human being . I guess I was brought up in a very metanoid environment, beautiful, loving family and friends my whole life, which is not a bad thing, we all want to believe that the world is a good place, more so a fair one, so that we can grow up and contribute and instill a sense of goodness in it. Maybe that why I fell victim to the system, I wasn't brought up to question it, and when I eventually did, I guess I fell victim to it.
As a Ti, my sixth sense is so heightened, that it has helped in in almost 90 percent of the situations I found myself in, and the techniques used as a countermeasure to my attacks, both verbally and physically have worked very well to my benefit. My sixth sense which I refer to as SSDS (Sixth Sense Defense System) works directly with my other 5 senses, see, hear, smell, touch and taste. I've trained my senses to QUESTION everything, which is necessary at this point. The information is sent back to my security system (SSDS), which then tries to unscramble the input, to form a picture or a puzzle, depending on what this picture looks like, it is then given a rating of low to high threat. My security system tells me how to react to the threat, and whether to counter strike or not and what the possible repercussions maybe.
All TI'S need to build a sixth sense, it is not about being paranoid, its about being safe against a threat that wants to destroy your sense of stability and drive you to insanity, and yes by all means react, enforce both your legal and human right and react. they say an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind, if making the world blind makes them realise just how unfair they are being, the so be it. I gladly stand up for myself and know many ways to put out an eye, I don't mean physically guys, unless your physically threatened. I refuse to play the game at all costs. I refuse to be another statistic of a sadistic unjust system. and more so I refuse to be a victim, and I have built my own security system to help protect me from the above elements and keep me out of the arena, hence now I am merely a spectator who uses his six senses to observe this sadistic system (as it unfairly does me), records the input and uses it to my advantage to stay both stable, sane and alive, and remember even though I am a spectator, those that are playing the game in the centre ring and those in the arena around me, have there eyes and attention on me, they secretly converse amongst themselves on how to get me into the ring, how to get me to play. I keep my ground, remain steadfast and vigilant and kindly decline. When the game gets dirty and everyone in the arena stands up and applauds, I don't beat myself the side of the head. I stand up and applaud with them, or I strike back in my own way that shuts them up. If you can't beat, join em, and it drives them crazy.
This is a game of power and control over you, but if you learn to find ways to control negative elements in your life, then you have power and control over them, and I guess the secret is to remember that you are in control at all times, no matter what. I am not saying that my sixth sense defense system will work for everyone, it all depends on how STRONG you choose to be. What I am saying is, build your own SSDS and make it work for you, implement your
PROGRAM of CONTROL, POWER, DEFENSE and INPUT over them, just as they do over you, an eye for an eye, and let em know its gonna hurt.
Now that I studied and learnt this game through educating myself and through observation, I developed what is referred to as a sixth sense, which I refer to as my security sense. I will attempt to explain what this means. All TI'S report that Gang stalking makes you PARANOID, which is true, the GAME is designed that way. It is designed to let your senses KICK IN and let you know that the world IS NOT as it seems, it is designed to make you think you crazy and question your sanity, WHICH IS WHAT THEY WANT. Being paranoid and questioning your sanity is not a bad thing, everybody does it once in a while, we do it because we question whether the world around us is crazy or sane. The opposite of paranoia is metanoia, which tell you the exact opposite, that the world is beautiful, untarnished, seamless, uncruel, humane and fair, and to tell you the truth, this is a sense that is far more dangerous, because its a sense that won't allow you to question yourself, which in short makes you vulnerable as a human being . I guess I was brought up in a very metanoid environment, beautiful, loving family and friends my whole life, which is not a bad thing, we all want to believe that the world is a good place, more so a fair one, so that we can grow up and contribute and instill a sense of goodness in it. Maybe that why I fell victim to the system, I wasn't brought up to question it, and when I eventually did, I guess I fell victim to it.
As a Ti, my sixth sense is so heightened, that it has helped in in almost 90 percent of the situations I found myself in, and the techniques used as a countermeasure to my attacks, both verbally and physically have worked very well to my benefit. My sixth sense which I refer to as SSDS (Sixth Sense Defense System) works directly with my other 5 senses, see, hear, smell, touch and taste. I've trained my senses to QUESTION everything, which is necessary at this point. The information is sent back to my security system (SSDS), which then tries to unscramble the input, to form a picture or a puzzle, depending on what this picture looks like, it is then given a rating of low to high threat. My security system tells me how to react to the threat, and whether to counter strike or not and what the possible repercussions maybe.
All TI'S need to build a sixth sense, it is not about being paranoid, its about being safe against a threat that wants to destroy your sense of stability and drive you to insanity, and yes by all means react, enforce both your legal and human right and react. they say an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind, if making the world blind makes them realise just how unfair they are being, the so be it. I gladly stand up for myself and know many ways to put out an eye, I don't mean physically guys, unless your physically threatened. I refuse to play the game at all costs. I refuse to be another statistic of a sadistic unjust system. and more so I refuse to be a victim, and I have built my own security system to help protect me from the above elements and keep me out of the arena, hence now I am merely a spectator who uses his six senses to observe this sadistic system (as it unfairly does me), records the input and uses it to my advantage to stay both stable, sane and alive, and remember even though I am a spectator, those that are playing the game in the centre ring and those in the arena around me, have there eyes and attention on me, they secretly converse amongst themselves on how to get me into the ring, how to get me to play. I keep my ground, remain steadfast and vigilant and kindly decline. When the game gets dirty and everyone in the arena stands up and applauds, I don't beat myself the side of the head. I stand up and applaud with them, or I strike back in my own way that shuts them up. If you can't beat, join em, and it drives them crazy.
This is a game of power and control over you, but if you learn to find ways to control negative elements in your life, then you have power and control over them, and I guess the secret is to remember that you are in control at all times, no matter what. I am not saying that my sixth sense defense system will work for everyone, it all depends on how STRONG you choose to be. What I am saying is, build your own SSDS and make it work for you, implement your
PROGRAM of CONTROL, POWER, DEFENSE and INPUT over them, just as they do over you, an eye for an eye, and let em know its gonna hurt.
MR GANGSTALKING - THE PERFECT ASSASIN - AUG 08
As weeks progressed, I dug so deep into this demons brain (just like it does in mine) that it sent me into virtual state of permanent shock of realizing that the world was not, I ORIGINALLY THOUGH IT WAS, OR WAS BROUGHT UP TO BELIEVE.
The demons name is MR Gang stalking, conjured up by that former employer in the U.S. to possibly shut me up for those atrocities that were being committed against me while undertaking that work and travel internship with them. I am his target, his objective is to destroy me, mentally, physically, emotionally, psychologically and financially. In hind sight to destroy my credibility as a human being, by destroying everything around me (note emphasis on destroying), drive me into a state of insanity, poverty and kill me, and if I had known this 6 years ago, I WOULD HAVE OPTED FOR A BULLET TO MY HEAD . Mr Gang stalking is a single, dark figured, secretive entity that has various personality traits, meaning that he can be subtle but destructive, evasive but tormenting, kind but cruel, loving but extremely torturous, both mentally and physically, and every other good for bad ratio you can think off. He is able to control and influence the masses with his wealth, power and access to hi-technology. One entity, so many faces, to many to list, deceptive ones, practically hundreds if not thousands and only one demon. His lies and deception is his strength, planting the seed of doubt is the only game he knows how to play, and he plays it well.
I will attempt to explain who this BASTARD DEMON IS. Gang stalking is a community based version of what work place mobbing is and is part of work place mobbing, except this continues out in the community and is a system that is designed to control every aspect of a persons life, using the following methods:-
False incrimination, lies, slander, defamation of character, character assassination, employment and every other type of blacklisting, sexual harassment, 24/7 surveillance and invasion of privacy and reality shows, physical assaults, stimuli's, high-tech directed energy weapons and mind control, hate campaigns, snitches and bitches, secret false files and perpetrators, hospitals, psychiatric wards, loony bins and false diagnosis, trains planes and automobiles, and the involvement of practically every sector of society, resulting in the inhumane physical and emotional torture and death of an innocent human being, who has been secretly stripped of every civil and human rights code available under the law, and who has and probably will not/never be given the chance at a fair trial. All of the above will leave no trace or evidence as to the persons credibility, mental state of mind or death. The perfect crime, Mr Gang stalking, the perfect assassin.
Eleanor White describes it best when she define it as an extra ordinary judiciary system, in which the so called SYSTEM skips all of the BAD STUFF, such as the right to an attorney, the persons civil or human rights under the law, and the most important off all the RIGHT TO A FAIR TRIAL, and goes straight to the GOOD STUFF, Punishment. I on the other hand just wanted to warn you of some of Mr Gang stalkings personality traits, as I am one off his many victims, and have been so for almost 6 years without my knowledge. I am what is referred to as a TARGETED INDIVIDUAL OR IN SHORT A TI.
The demons name is MR Gang stalking, conjured up by that former employer in the U.S. to possibly shut me up for those atrocities that were being committed against me while undertaking that work and travel internship with them. I am his target, his objective is to destroy me, mentally, physically, emotionally, psychologically and financially. In hind sight to destroy my credibility as a human being, by destroying everything around me (note emphasis on destroying), drive me into a state of insanity, poverty and kill me, and if I had known this 6 years ago, I WOULD HAVE OPTED FOR A BULLET TO MY HEAD . Mr Gang stalking is a single, dark figured, secretive entity that has various personality traits, meaning that he can be subtle but destructive, evasive but tormenting, kind but cruel, loving but extremely torturous, both mentally and physically, and every other good for bad ratio you can think off. He is able to control and influence the masses with his wealth, power and access to hi-technology. One entity, so many faces, to many to list, deceptive ones, practically hundreds if not thousands and only one demon. His lies and deception is his strength, planting the seed of doubt is the only game he knows how to play, and he plays it well.
I will attempt to explain who this BASTARD DEMON IS. Gang stalking is a community based version of what work place mobbing is and is part of work place mobbing, except this continues out in the community and is a system that is designed to control every aspect of a persons life, using the following methods:-
False incrimination, lies, slander, defamation of character, character assassination, employment and every other type of blacklisting, sexual harassment, 24/7 surveillance and invasion of privacy and reality shows, physical assaults, stimuli's, high-tech directed energy weapons and mind control, hate campaigns, snitches and bitches, secret false files and perpetrators, hospitals, psychiatric wards, loony bins and false diagnosis, trains planes and automobiles, and the involvement of practically every sector of society, resulting in the inhumane physical and emotional torture and death of an innocent human being, who has been secretly stripped of every civil and human rights code available under the law, and who has and probably will not/never be given the chance at a fair trial. All of the above will leave no trace or evidence as to the persons credibility, mental state of mind or death. The perfect crime, Mr Gang stalking, the perfect assassin.
Eleanor White describes it best when she define it as an extra ordinary judiciary system, in which the so called SYSTEM skips all of the BAD STUFF, such as the right to an attorney, the persons civil or human rights under the law, and the most important off all the RIGHT TO A FAIR TRIAL, and goes straight to the GOOD STUFF, Punishment. I on the other hand just wanted to warn you of some of Mr Gang stalkings personality traits, as I am one off his many victims, and have been so for almost 6 years without my knowledge. I am what is referred to as a TARGETED INDIVIDUAL OR IN SHORT A TI.
HUMAN NATURE - DESTRUCTIVE FORCE THAT KILLS
My return to the computer brought about a certain uneasiness, a tremor in my body. Clicking on Leslie's video, I was greeted with a soft spoken women, with kind eyes. beautiful, more so from the inside, you could immediately tell. As I watched the first video,I became more embroiled. Leslie's testimony span almost 15 videos, and after watching them over and over again, I could not be more convinced that I was now cast into a very different world. Leslie spoke passionately about how she became a targeted individual in her place of employment for no apparent reason, and how she was abused, mistreated, tortured and almost killed. She described in detail the psychological warfare, coupled with psycho tonic or directed energy weapons that were used to hurt and incapacitate her. She described how she was secretly put under surveillance, and had her personal life exposed, how she had been followed everywhere and how she had been black listed, discredited, mobbed and tortured at every placed of employment afterwards. Is it possible that one human being could endure so much suffering. Any human being could look at this women and say that she had no malicious intent. The only intent she had was to be a good citizen, a good employee and a good mother and provide for her two children, wheres the crime it that. Why did the people she put so much TRUST in destroy her life, discredit her, steal her identity and replace it with one of a high profiled criminal. What kind of justice is this?, or more so WHAT KIND OF WORLD IS THIS.
Leslie's story encouraged me to dig deeper into this issue, which by now I was completely obsessed with, even though at this point I was still thinking to my self, that there is only a one percent chance that someone else in this world could have experienced what I was going through, part of my brain saying it probable is, and the other curious part saying lets see if there is something like this out there, and if there are more victims. I started looking at other videos on the topic on u- tube posted just under Leslie's webpage, and sure enough, it was as if the video testimonies and information on the very topic Leslie was talking about came bursting through the screens. Part of me was so relieved to realise that I was not alone, that this demon does exist, has been stalking more than one person, and is part of society, and the other part of me just froze in fear.
Leslie's story encouraged me to dig deeper into this issue, which by now I was completely obsessed with, even though at this point I was still thinking to my self, that there is only a one percent chance that someone else in this world could have experienced what I was going through, part of my brain saying it probable is, and the other curious part saying lets see if there is something like this out there, and if there are more victims. I started looking at other videos on the topic on u- tube posted just under Leslie's webpage, and sure enough, it was as if the video testimonies and information on the very topic Leslie was talking about came bursting through the screens. Part of me was so relieved to realise that I was not alone, that this demon does exist, has been stalking more than one person, and is part of society, and the other part of me just froze in fear.
NATURES COURSE - HEAL AND DESTROY - GANGSTALKING
You know time and nature can really heal, if you think about it, take away the negative vibrations, the storm so to speak and you have calmness afterwards, and calmness allows one to look within them selves and to evaluate themselves and there situations. It gives one new ideas on how to rebuild after the storms impact, how to address the damage caused by an unforgiving, overpowering and destructive force of nature, human nature that it.
Over a period of 2-3 months, nature did take its course. I was starting to feel more like myself again, but it was slow course with some really heavy baggage still weighting on my back, such as my destroyed career, my financial position, my reputation etc. I tried to distract myself from negative thoughts, while trying to replace these with a more positive lifestyle, going out, cooking dinner, enjoying a good conversation with my roommate etc, but heavy baggage rules and always takes its toll, and so it was right back to the drawing board or should I say computer. Workplace harassment and mobbing ruled my life for a couple of weeks. I was not only fascinated but also obsessed with the topic. A new idea had struck, if I could not find defenses within the legal system, I would build my own defenses by educating myself in the topic and my rights and the next time this happens, I would know how to deal with it, take the BULL or the DEVIL by the horns so to speak, after all education is power and if I was going to go back into the real world, I was not going to suffer the soul destroying symptoms of mans destructive nature again. I meant that, and I still do.
While researching defamation law one day, I decided to take a break and listen to some free music on you tube, so I logged on and instead of typing in the music artist and the songs I was looking for, a crazy idea struck me. People post videos on you tube. What if there was a video on employment defamation or possibly an attorney offering his services in this particular field. I didn't know much about you tube and have only used it on one or two occasions before, with the sole purpose of listening to some latest music for free. I decided to give it a shot and typed in employment defamation in the your tube search engine. A page opened up and I scrolled through it, nothing of importance, until at the very bottom, a video, titled, my personal story caught my attention. I quickly put two and two together figuring it meant employment defamation, my personal story, so I clicked on it only out off curiosity. A page opened up belonging to a black African American women named Leslie L. Crawford, a little heading just underneath her photo saying my personal story. I clicked on it and a bio or a written page opened up. I decided to read the bio first to see if it was off any importance prior to watching the video. I began to read in haste, a part of me saying, skip the intro and go straight to the good stuff, meaning the video, but as I began to read, I can't describe the feeling, I guess you could call it an awakening, a rude one. Each phase of each sentence caught my attention and my hastiness suddenly slowed down, almost to the point that I felt shell shocked, my world stopped right in its tracks, the slow course I was tackling suddenly hit a dead end. A surge of energy rose inside me, a horrible demonic like feeling filled the air. In a matter of minutes my head was bombarded with every conceivable feeling of betrayal, sadness, hate, contempt and violation. Tears welled in my eyes as I looked at Leslie's picture and said, I know you, i been there, I've experienced that.
How is it that when you're desperate and looking for answers, it wont' open itself up to you, but just as you think you're OK, you're making normal strides in your life, on a perfectly bright normal sunny day, in a normal stable frame of mind, running life's crippling race one step at a time, you hit a dead end and come face to face that DEMON. I immediately paused, in a matter of minutes, i wanted to throw up, I wanted to die. My mind was so discombobulated that during my break time from the computer, I kept on telling my self its not possible. I couldn't be in hell. I'm to good of a person. to kind to the unkind, to forgiving to the unforgiving, to understanding to those to those to don't understand or want to be understood, to patient to the rude and impatient, to courteous to the discourteous, to helpful to those in need of it, but wont give thanks for it, and to loving to the unloving, and all these people have crippled me because of who I choose to be and now I have to burn in hell for it. Like I said, NATURE COURSE TO HEAL AND DESTROY.
Over a period of 2-3 months, nature did take its course. I was starting to feel more like myself again, but it was slow course with some really heavy baggage still weighting on my back, such as my destroyed career, my financial position, my reputation etc. I tried to distract myself from negative thoughts, while trying to replace these with a more positive lifestyle, going out, cooking dinner, enjoying a good conversation with my roommate etc, but heavy baggage rules and always takes its toll, and so it was right back to the drawing board or should I say computer. Workplace harassment and mobbing ruled my life for a couple of weeks. I was not only fascinated but also obsessed with the topic. A new idea had struck, if I could not find defenses within the legal system, I would build my own defenses by educating myself in the topic and my rights and the next time this happens, I would know how to deal with it, take the BULL or the DEVIL by the horns so to speak, after all education is power and if I was going to go back into the real world, I was not going to suffer the soul destroying symptoms of mans destructive nature again. I meant that, and I still do.
While researching defamation law one day, I decided to take a break and listen to some free music on you tube, so I logged on and instead of typing in the music artist and the songs I was looking for, a crazy idea struck me. People post videos on you tube. What if there was a video on employment defamation or possibly an attorney offering his services in this particular field. I didn't know much about you tube and have only used it on one or two occasions before, with the sole purpose of listening to some latest music for free. I decided to give it a shot and typed in employment defamation in the your tube search engine. A page opened up and I scrolled through it, nothing of importance, until at the very bottom, a video, titled, my personal story caught my attention. I quickly put two and two together figuring it meant employment defamation, my personal story, so I clicked on it only out off curiosity. A page opened up belonging to a black African American women named Leslie L. Crawford, a little heading just underneath her photo saying my personal story. I clicked on it and a bio or a written page opened up. I decided to read the bio first to see if it was off any importance prior to watching the video. I began to read in haste, a part of me saying, skip the intro and go straight to the good stuff, meaning the video, but as I began to read, I can't describe the feeling, I guess you could call it an awakening, a rude one. Each phase of each sentence caught my attention and my hastiness suddenly slowed down, almost to the point that I felt shell shocked, my world stopped right in its tracks, the slow course I was tackling suddenly hit a dead end. A surge of energy rose inside me, a horrible demonic like feeling filled the air. In a matter of minutes my head was bombarded with every conceivable feeling of betrayal, sadness, hate, contempt and violation. Tears welled in my eyes as I looked at Leslie's picture and said, I know you, i been there, I've experienced that.
How is it that when you're desperate and looking for answers, it wont' open itself up to you, but just as you think you're OK, you're making normal strides in your life, on a perfectly bright normal sunny day, in a normal stable frame of mind, running life's crippling race one step at a time, you hit a dead end and come face to face that DEMON. I immediately paused, in a matter of minutes, i wanted to throw up, I wanted to die. My mind was so discombobulated that during my break time from the computer, I kept on telling my self its not possible. I couldn't be in hell. I'm to good of a person. to kind to the unkind, to forgiving to the unforgiving, to understanding to those to those to don't understand or want to be understood, to patient to the rude and impatient, to courteous to the discourteous, to helpful to those in need of it, but wont give thanks for it, and to loving to the unloving, and all these people have crippled me because of who I choose to be and now I have to burn in hell for it. Like I said, NATURE COURSE TO HEAL AND DESTROY.
JULY 08 - RESEARCH ON DEFAMATION, MOBBING, PSYCHOLOGICAL HARASSMENT
Back to the computer, I initially always knew this was a case of defamation, so I started my research with employment harassment and defamation law and included in it false incrimination. My problem was that my situation arouse in the United states and I am now living in Canada. How was I going to incorporate U.S. Law in Canadian law. They were both different. This was later confirmed to me when I picked up the phone and spoke to an excellent attorney specialising in employment defamation law. I was told US law is U.S law and Canadian law is Canadian law, and that he needed $175000 to get started, I hung up immediately. To sue I would initially have to go back to the States, to the very source, I later found out that a second or third party to defamation is as much liable as the first, but again the question of two different laws arouse. Could I sue my employer in Canada for defamation of character, based on accusations that go back 13 employers and span almost 6 years. I was seriously doubting as to whether I could find answers as to what was happening. I decided to put the theory to the test to see if it worked under Canadian law. I started to call up various attorneys specialising in employment law, and what I discovered was that the theory could have worked had I stayed much longer with my previous employer downtown, but based on the information I had given to the attorneys, not only did I not have a case at this point because of my time period with them, but I needed hardcore proof in terms of witnesses and my bugged apartment. I didn't have that, because if anything the nature of the harassment was subtle and destructive.
I initially became so frustrated and felt so helpless, that I pushed the entire law thing aside and decided to concentrate on my destroyed frame of mind, so I dug deeper into workplace harassment, and this somehow brought up the term WORKPLACE MOBBING, a term I had never heard off before. Work place mobbing is described as the systematic ganging up of a team of individual perpetrators on a single individual, in a place of employment, with the intent to harass and psychologically demoralise the individual over time, in hind sight to either control or destroy the individual psychologically, which in time could lead to extreme mental illness, trauma and even suicide. This is usually done out of jealously, revenge and so on. I struck a cord with this term MOBBING. It described everything I had endured in all my places of employment. More so I dug deeper and looked at the medical symptoms of psychological workplace harassment and found that almost all of them matched mine. I am not going to dwell on the medical symptoms, because I am human and don't need any doctor to tell me what is happening to me emotionally. I can tell this simply by how I feel. As humans our senses are able to pick up on negative vibrations with deadly consequences and your brain and also your heart and soul will let you exactly how deadly an impact it is going to have on you. I never went to a doctor, and never believed in anti depressant pills or whatever. I wanted to see a shrink though, but the thought quickly moved when I realised I couldn't afford one. I couldn't even afford a loaf of bread when these bastards were done with me. Time heals all wounds, I remember telling myself, and so I decided to give it time, natures way of healing, I guess
I initially became so frustrated and felt so helpless, that I pushed the entire law thing aside and decided to concentrate on my destroyed frame of mind, so I dug deeper into workplace harassment, and this somehow brought up the term WORKPLACE MOBBING, a term I had never heard off before. Work place mobbing is described as the systematic ganging up of a team of individual perpetrators on a single individual, in a place of employment, with the intent to harass and psychologically demoralise the individual over time, in hind sight to either control or destroy the individual psychologically, which in time could lead to extreme mental illness, trauma and even suicide. This is usually done out of jealously, revenge and so on. I struck a cord with this term MOBBING. It described everything I had endured in all my places of employment. More so I dug deeper and looked at the medical symptoms of psychological workplace harassment and found that almost all of them matched mine. I am not going to dwell on the medical symptoms, because I am human and don't need any doctor to tell me what is happening to me emotionally. I can tell this simply by how I feel. As humans our senses are able to pick up on negative vibrations with deadly consequences and your brain and also your heart and soul will let you exactly how deadly an impact it is going to have on you. I never went to a doctor, and never believed in anti depressant pills or whatever. I wanted to see a shrink though, but the thought quickly moved when I realised I couldn't afford one. I couldn't even afford a loaf of bread when these bastards were done with me. Time heals all wounds, I remember telling myself, and so I decided to give it time, natures way of healing, I guess
JUNE08 - LOOKING FOR ANSWERS
Shortly after moving home, I started suffering from terrible nightmares, very similar to the ones experienced in my apartment. My sleep patterns became SO DISTORTED, I was literally starting to feel as if I was loosing my mind. At work I was constantly loosing my concentration, felt tired or lethargic, forgetful and sometimes extremely clumsy. This coupled with the emotional distress suffered as a result of being hated, harassed and violated, all added up to what I thought might be a medical term referred to as psychosis or post traumatic stress disorder, which has almost the same symptoms, except there was one other ingredient to this secret recipe known as COVERT MIND CONTROL. I will be bringing up this ingredient at a later stage. For now I want to concentrate on the logistics of how I found my demon.
Towards the middle of June 08, I decided to set up my computer, and although I was told it would be impossible to set it up in this house, in my tiny room, as the wiring in this old house was well, old, I insisted nonetheless. The fear of whether I would find another job suited to my skills, based on my past and what was currently happening to me, really got me worried. I wanted to find some answers. It was a promise I had made to myself for the first time in 5 years
and since being mobbed out off my last place of employment. The cable company came, and without much hoopla, had it all set up, much to my surprise. I felt a sense of immediate relief, I needed to find answers, to find this demon and face it head on.
I remember sitting for the first time on my computer after it was set up, and asking myself OK, where do I start, and believe it or not, this became a regular question every time I logged on. I didn't know where to start. Instead I switched of the computer and would go sit in the park. I started to take my mind back to the first time I had entered the U.S as a work and travel intern, at the end of 2001, my first experience, my second horrifying experience, followed by more horrifying experiences over a five and a half year period, and although I didn't know that this demon existed at the time, I started to question everything, when, why,who,what,where, and what I realised was that, there was a pattern in the harassment that had followed me right throughout the U.S and now in Canada, the problem was, I needed to make sense of it. why would all my employers treat me with such hate and contempt, based on lies, why wouldn't they believe me when I tried to sit and talk with them, who was sending them this falsified information. I had cut ties with the company that had created this problem, and know well enough it can be traced back to them. I initially concluded that it might have been through a back ground check, or later as I moved from one contracted job to the next, i figured that my employers might be keeping in contact with my agency, responsible for my employments in the U.S and sending this info via them.
Towards the middle of June 08, I decided to set up my computer, and although I was told it would be impossible to set it up in this house, in my tiny room, as the wiring in this old house was well, old, I insisted nonetheless. The fear of whether I would find another job suited to my skills, based on my past and what was currently happening to me, really got me worried. I wanted to find some answers. It was a promise I had made to myself for the first time in 5 years
and since being mobbed out off my last place of employment. The cable company came, and without much hoopla, had it all set up, much to my surprise. I felt a sense of immediate relief, I needed to find answers, to find this demon and face it head on.
I remember sitting for the first time on my computer after it was set up, and asking myself OK, where do I start, and believe it or not, this became a regular question every time I logged on. I didn't know where to start. Instead I switched of the computer and would go sit in the park. I started to take my mind back to the first time I had entered the U.S as a work and travel intern, at the end of 2001, my first experience, my second horrifying experience, followed by more horrifying experiences over a five and a half year period, and although I didn't know that this demon existed at the time, I started to question everything, when, why,who,what,where, and what I realised was that, there was a pattern in the harassment that had followed me right throughout the U.S and now in Canada, the problem was, I needed to make sense of it. why would all my employers treat me with such hate and contempt, based on lies, why wouldn't they believe me when I tried to sit and talk with them, who was sending them this falsified information. I had cut ties with the company that had created this problem, and know well enough it can be traced back to them. I initially concluded that it might have been through a back ground check, or later as I moved from one contracted job to the next, i figured that my employers might be keeping in contact with my agency, responsible for my employments in the U.S and sending this info via them.
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