JUNE08 - LOOKING FOR ANSWERS

Shortly after moving home, I started suffering from terrible nightmares, very similar to the ones experienced in my apartment. My sleep patterns became SO DISTORTED, I was literally starting to feel as if I was loosing my mind. At work I was constantly loosing my concentration, felt tired or lethargic, forgetful and sometimes extremely clumsy. This coupled with the emotional distress suffered as a result of being hated, harassed and violated, all added up to what I thought might be a medical term referred to as psychosis or post traumatic stress disorder, which has almost the same symptoms, except there was one other ingredient to this secret recipe known as COVERT MIND CONTROL. I will be bringing up this ingredient at a later stage. For now I want to concentrate on the logistics of how I found my demon.

Towards the middle of June 08, I decided to set up my computer, and although I was told it would be impossible to set it up in this house, in my tiny room, as the wiring in this old house was well, old, I insisted nonetheless. The fear of whether I would find another job suited to my skills, based on my past and what was currently happening to me, really got me worried. I wanted to find some answers. It was a promise I had made to myself for the first time in 5 years
and since being mobbed out off my last place of employment. The cable company came, and without much hoopla, had it all set up, much to my surprise. I felt a sense of immediate relief, I needed to find answers, to find this demon and face it head on.

I remember sitting for the first time on my computer after it was set up, and asking myself OK, where do I start, and believe it or not, this became a regular question every time I logged on. I didn't know where to start. Instead I switched of the computer and would go sit in the park. I started to take my mind back to the first time I had entered the U.S as a work and travel intern, at the end of 2001, my first experience, my second horrifying experience, followed by more horrifying experiences over a five and a half year period, and although I didn't know that this demon existed at the time, I started to question everything, when, why,who,what,where, and what I realised was that, there was a pattern in the harassment that had followed me right throughout the U.S and now in Canada, the problem was, I needed to make sense of it. why would all my employers treat me with such hate and contempt, based on lies, why wouldn't they believe me when I tried to sit and talk with them, who was sending them this falsified information. I had cut ties with the company that had created this problem, and know well enough it can be traced back to them. I initially concluded that it might have been through a back ground check, or later as I moved from one contracted job to the next, i figured that my employers might be keeping in contact with my agency, responsible for my employments in the U.S and sending this info via them.