NATURES COURSE - HEAL AND DESTROY - GANGSTALKING

You know time and nature can really heal, if you think about it, take away the negative vibrations, the storm so to speak and you have calmness afterwards, and calmness allows one to look within them selves and to evaluate themselves and there situations. It gives one new ideas on how to rebuild after the storms impact, how to address the damage caused by an unforgiving, overpowering and destructive force of nature, human nature that it.

Over a period of 2-3 months, nature did take its course. I was starting to feel more like myself again, but it was slow course with some really heavy baggage still weighting on my back, such as my destroyed career, my financial position, my reputation etc. I tried to distract myself from negative thoughts, while trying to replace these with a more positive lifestyle, going out, cooking dinner, enjoying a good conversation with my roommate etc, but heavy baggage rules and always takes its toll, and so it was right back to the drawing board or should I say computer. Workplace harassment and mobbing ruled my life for a couple of weeks. I was not only fascinated but also obsessed with the topic. A new idea had struck, if I could not find defenses within the legal system, I would build my own defenses by educating myself in the topic and my rights and the next time this happens, I would know how to deal with it, take the BULL or the DEVIL by the horns so to speak, after all education is power and if I was going to go back into the real world, I was not going to suffer the soul destroying symptoms of mans destructive nature again. I meant that, and I still do.


While researching defamation law one day, I decided to take a break and listen to some free music on you tube, so I logged on and instead of typing in the music artist and the songs I was looking for, a crazy idea struck me. People post videos on you tube. What if there was a video on employment defamation or possibly an attorney offering his services in this particular field. I didn't know much about you tube and have only used it on one or two occasions before, with the sole purpose of listening to some latest music for free. I decided to give it a shot and typed in employment defamation in the your tube search engine. A page opened up and I scrolled through it, nothing of importance, until at the very bottom, a video, titled, my personal story caught my attention. I quickly put two and two together figuring it meant employment defamation, my personal story, so I clicked on it only out off curiosity. A page opened up belonging to a black African American women named Leslie L. Crawford, a little heading just underneath her photo saying my personal story. I clicked on it and a bio or a written page opened up. I decided to read the bio first to see if it was off any importance prior to watching the video. I began to read in haste, a part of me saying, skip the intro and go straight to the good stuff, meaning the video, but as I began to read, I can't describe the feeling, I guess you could call it an awakening, a rude one. Each phase of each sentence caught my attention and my hastiness suddenly slowed down, almost to the point that I felt shell shocked, my world stopped right in its tracks, the slow course I was tackling suddenly hit a dead end. A surge of energy rose inside me, a horrible demonic like feeling filled the air. In a matter of minutes my head was bombarded with every conceivable feeling of betrayal, sadness, hate, contempt and violation. Tears welled in my eyes as I looked at Leslie's picture and said, I know you, i been there, I've experienced that.

How is it that when you're desperate and looking for answers, it wont' open itself up to you, but just as you think you're OK, you're making normal strides in your life, on a perfectly bright normal sunny day, in a normal stable frame of mind, running life's crippling race one step at a time, you hit a dead end and come face to face that DEMON. I immediately paused, in a matter of minutes, i wanted to throw up, I wanted to die. My mind was so discombobulated that during my break time from the computer, I kept on telling my self its not possible. I couldn't be in hell. I'm to good of a person. to kind to the unkind, to forgiving to the unforgiving, to understanding to those to those to don't understand or want to be understood, to patient to the rude and impatient, to courteous to the discourteous, to helpful to those in need of it, but wont give thanks for it, and to loving to the unloving, and all these people have crippled me because of who I choose to be and now I have to burn in hell for it. Like I said, NATURE COURSE TO HEAL AND DESTROY.